Some Explaining

Yesterday, I said I was super angry about something, but now that I cooled off I feel like it is not necessary to make a video about it. OK, well this is what happened.

           I had my first actual day of school yesterday, and everything was going.. uhh, ok. I mean there were some little bumps. Like when my Spanish Lit. teacher called me out and then went on this big rant about how people need to be nice to me because I'm an exchange student and I don't really understand anything. Ok, that's kinda nice I guess. It was a tad embarrassing but I got over it. The thing I didn't get over, however is this: I was walking to my English class, all by myself because you know what it is freaking hard to make friends here, and I saw some people I recognized to be in my grade. I thought, "Oh! this is a good opportunity to be nice to them, I'll just smile or something, nothing to big" so I smile. That was not a good decision. One of the guys shouted, "What the fuck!" right at me.
Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa. Hold on a moment mister. I was being nice and OH you swear at me. At first this made me super upset because all I was trying to do was be friendly, but after much thought, I was like screw it. Know what? Forget it. I'm going to deal with this in the Canadian way.

          What is the Canadian way, you might ask? BE VERY FRIENDLY! Canadians are known for being friendly. Well, mister, you going to get a whole bunch of friendly coming your way. Oh I see your in the same hallway as me, HOLA! Oh you swore at me again, well partner aren't you a sad little camper. I guess I'm going to have to be a whole bunch friendlier just to make sure you know that Canadians are quite a friendly even when they've been sworn at.

          Ok I know that sounds like I'm actually going to be mean to this kid, but truthfully I'm not. All I'm going to do is be friendly and hope it works :)
         
         Other then that little ordeal I'm pretty decent. I mean I don't really understand ANYONE but hey I'm learning a brand new language and it has only been 2 and a half weeks. There's only room for improvement.

Why?

I had some major problems today, but it is to long to explain by writing so tomorrow I will make a video about it

                Tonight in my town there was a rally for the independence of Catalonia. There were many people, but not like it was the whole town. I don't understand why Catalonia wants independence, so (for me) it made no sense for me to be there because I don't know the facts so I don't know where I stand on this matter. Though in most cases I don't support separatism unless it is extremely bad. When I got home I went straight to my laptop and googled it. What I learnt is that Catalonia feels it is a whole different culture than Spain, that they are a nation of their own. That they feel that Spain is not doing the right things where their money, that they are working and the government is wasting their money. I also learnt that during the Franko era in Spain it was banned to speak Catalan, and that same hatred is still around today. I think, from what I've been hearing from most people, that this is why they want to separate. I feel that now I am more informed that I can make an opinion,  but I still don't know how I feel on this.
                  You see, I don't understand. Just plain and simple; I don't understand. This situation is tense. But you see there is something that bothered me about this.... rally. You see there were many children and teens there, and from the looks of it they really believed in this, even my host sister is into this. But what I ask is, do they know what they are supporting? do they know why they support it? I bet if I asked why they felt this way they would just say because; and I don't like that. I never, or try to never, support a cause unless I know why I support it and I know the facts. I will not blatantly follow, I will form my own opinion on my own. When I don't know the facts I usually say I don't know how I feel about it, like in this case. But these kids are just following their parents, being fed something they don't understand. For example, I was walking with my host sister and we were counting Catalan flags. I pointed out a Spanish and her reaction was immediately was to cringe her nose and say eww. Excuse me? Why? I'd understand if it was a nazi flag but a Spanish flag? If you complain about Spain being racist, then why, pray tell, are you cringing your nose? This hate that was created is just doing the same that Franko did. All hate does is create more hate. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND

Having some problems

I'm having such a hard time understanding the language, it's so frustrating!! I spent the whole day trying to study "to have" and I created all these word things so I can understand better, but then no. I study the wrong "have" there's two haves in spanish...... OMG it's so frustrating, I don't understand anything, I'm not getting any better, and I have such a hard time talking to people. I feel like I can't be myself because I just I can't communicate with anyone. AND this stupid "have" stuff, OMG i don't understand what's the difference between the two verbs, yes I know "tener" is possession, but what is "haber" I know it has something to do with having done something, but why are there different tenses for it? I've either done something or not. I may have done it in the past but have means I've done it in the past, why is there a past tense? IT IS SO HARD!!! i thought spanish was easy.... this sucks so much. also what the heck is a "perfect" verb structure? when do I use that?? it is still that I've done it. I DONT UNDERSTAND.

Arrival in Spain

I arrived in Spain on September 1. I now know that I speak NO spanish at all. I am learning quickly, though, I am studying very hard so maybe by the time school starts (sept 12) I can say some stuff.
I'm scared I'm going to have no friends for the first bit :S because I can't say anything, but my technique is to be super outgoing and if I make a mistake just laugh it off. Hopefully that will work.
My host family is SUPER supportive, they try their best to teach me Spanish, though I don't remember what they taught me if I don't write it down. With their help I am slowly understand a little more everyday. So I think everything will be alright
Oh and their cat fell asleep on my bed