I'm feeling good, don't worry.

This week has been good.

I've talked to a friend about my frustrations and she says she understands and will help me, which is GREAT! School has been getting better, slowly. I'm really pushing myself to talk with people even more and I think it is going really good. I'm also learning new things all the time about Spanish, so I'm not to worried about the language. So if you are worried, there is no need to be. I sometimes get really frustrated and since I don't really have anyone here to rant to about it with (because at the moment I don't have a counsellor here), I ranted about it on my blog. I'm sorry if I worried anyone.

Today was actually a really good day. I took my parents advice and tried to be more open minded. AND, my dear parents, I'm sorry if I was so grumpy to you, I just hate it when your right when I'm feeling bad. I was being a little closed minded and immature when I was talking to you, and for that I am sorry. BUT any-who, about my day. I went and I helped out in a "grade 8" (segundo de eso) English class, and boy was that fun.

I was helping out these 2 boys who were doing a project on Canada. After the teacher introduced me to the boys, I told them I was from Vancouver, and one of the boys reaction was priceless. He got excited and told me he liked the Vancouver Canucks and that he really liked Canada. I was thinking, "This kid is going to go places in life." He also told me that he was going to Vancouver in 3 years, which I was like that's really far planning ahead, but OK. Then the boys proceeded to ask me about Canada and I helped with their English on their slides for the presentation.

Later in the day I went out for a walk, and I needed to send off my postcards. After I sent the postcards off I went to this shop I always look at. It is a tea shop, so of course being the tea fanatic I am, I had to go. I went and I bought chai tea and had a nice conversation with the store owner. She told me she always saw me looking in the shop when I passed by it (this is usually when I'm walking back from the gym and I have no money so I never go in). She also asked me where I was from, she thought I was from Japan because of my "looks" but I told her I was from Canada. She was surprised, and then I told her I was half Chinese and half German, and she was like, "That's a good mix" I agreed. She also gave me these free sugar candy things to put in your tea for free. She was super nice. I also would like to point out that I spoke only in Spanish, though it was very broken Spanish, it was Spanish.

And that's really all that happened to me today.

OH and also because I have so much free time, I've been really "finding" my style. It kinda all started when I was drawing something from a show I liked, when I though I really like drawing like this. It doesn't make me stressed it's just fun. So I drew more and more like that and I really like it. I'm still developing it more but for now it is just so fun to draw like this.

So things have been a little bit difficult for the last couple of days, but I think it'll be better soon.

this picture just... it sums everything up

I'm just going to take a step back and let friends come to me and not try to force things that aren't working. 

I also want to start trying to "find my style" in art. I think it'll really help me advance and become better

well that's really all... I just wanted to give a few little update

Also I drew this, it got a lot of likes on DA and it made me happy

I'm done.

Just because I don't speak the same language as you, does not mean I like being ignored.
Just because I'm not the same as you, does not mean I don't like being included.
Just because I don't like the same things as you, does not mean I don't like being ditched.

I'm trying so hard to make friends and be nice and talk to people, but I'm not getting back what I put out there. I got ditched not once but three times by my "friends" today. Do you know how much that hurts? If you don't want to be friends with me just tell me, okay? Don't let me believe you like me and then just not talk to me or ditch me, because that hurts a lot more then just telling me you don't like me. I can't believe this, I never thought people were this mean.

It's not all bad though I met some other people and they were nice, but I still don't understand it.

This is a little different

Ok, so it has been my first week of actual exercise in a month, AND OMG my aching non-existent six pack. I didn't really know what the three classes I took were I just thought they were all like yoga or aerobics. I was right for my first class, steps, it was like aerobics but a HECK of a lot harder. There were all these crazy dance moves and I just stood there looking at the teacher like, "what.is.happening" I really didn't how to do some of the steps, it was muy dificil, but the teacher is super nice. I told her I don't understand much Spanish and NO Catalan, and so every once and awhile she'd say something in English, look at me and go "Is that right?" it was really funny, and the rest of the class would say "yes, it's right" and laugh. It was a good time.

This is what steps looks like

That was on martes(Tuesday) and on miercoles(Wednesday) I had Pilates. I thought it was like aerobics. No.it.was.not. It was a mixture between yoga and just plain "oh my abs, why am I doing this" pain. I liked it but OH GOD IT HURT. The next day, my abs were defiantly hurting, but I knew I needed to commit to at least 3 days a week of working out, so I went to tono. THAT WAS NOT A GOOD IDEA! I should of guessed by the name that it had something to do with toning, but I didn't. It was like hell and steps and Pilates was all mixed together. Don't get me wrong it was a good work out and I'm defiantly going back, but my poor stomach can not take this much working out, I'm so sore.

Oh and for some reason after working out people here just look like they've gone for a walk. I'm standing there all red faced and sweaty, and their all nice looking and perfect. WHAT IS WITH THIS. I literally had sweat running down my face and the lady next to me looked like she just got off from sitting on a couch. 

Oh and my uncle sent me the sweetest message on Facebook:

It's been quite awhile since I've posted here, oops. I'm just one of those people whose like, "oh I'll do it later tonight" and I forget, but today OH NO I did not forget. Go me! *self highfive*

So since it has been quite a while this is going to be a biggie.

Okay, so school has gotten a lot better. I'm not understanding anything but I've made friends! And seriously that's really what it's all about. In fact I had two people stop me, today, when I was walking and ask me how I was doing and where I was from and all that jazz. It made me feel pretty happy and fuzzy on the inside. YAY FRIENDS! 

My language is slowly improving, though I still need English for a lot of things. I study almost everyday and I try to pay attention in my Spanish classes, but everyone speaks so fast :( I don't have the problem with people speaking to me in English because most people don't speak to me. I understand, when you speak to me you have to speak slowly and I'm REALLY hard to have a conversation with because it takes me so long to created one sentence. I would like to get to know more people right now but that'll have to wait until I can speak Spanish better. And my friends are really helping me with Spanish and I try my best to help them with their English.

Outside of school I've been doing more and more. On Saturdays, I've started helping out at an animal shelter and I LOVE IT! I get to give all this my love to all the dogs and cats there that really need it, it's really quite amazing. I just wanted to adopt all of them, they are so cute and deserve a good home. One day I'll bring my camera and take some pictures. If you're from Caldes or near by and looking for an animal please think of adopting from here: Caldes Animals. These animals deserve a good home and you could give them one. I'm sad that I can't but I hope someone will.

I've also started to go to the gym 3 times a week, starting this week. I love it! The classes I'm taking are really fun, but right now I'm super sore from Pilates. AHHHH my core hurts. It's really funny when I come back because my face is all red; my face is always really red when I do exercise, it's just genetics; and my host mom says I'm all rosy and laughs, it makes me laugh.

I haven't taken many pictures in since I've written last, but I've drawn quite a bit. Here are some of the photos:

There's more but I don't want to overload erbody

Also I'm feeling really, umm I don't know the word, but activist-y. I feeling "wise" about some stuff and I might make a video on it but I don't know, maybe.